Weight Issues.

This is my story.

I believe most of you girls out there feel fat most of the time, no? Well I do. I think I'm never super skinny, skinny. Unlike all you stick-thin, high metabolism-gifted girls out there, have good genes. I am nowhere near. Marcus, as you all know, looks really really really skinny but truth is he really doesn't look his weight.. What's worst is, he's really tall so when I, the plump & short looks several times fatter when I stand beside him than when I stand alone. Upsetting huh? So just a few months ago, I tried really unhealthy dieting, depending on mainly liquids and I managed to lose kilos in just a matter of days. I weighed 39kg then. And 39 for someone who's 155 isn't near thin, at least in my ideology of being thin, its JUST acceptable. I had pimples growing and my complexion was just HORRIBLE! Sad to say, that perfect 39 only lasted me for a month. My weight was never stable! And I got really tired of dieting because food is just that tempting!!! So I thought to myself, why starve just to get a month worth of perfection? Its been months since I last dieted and my weight seems to stay stagnant on the light 40s side of the scale. What's best is I get to enjoy any junk of a food I feel like eating. Just two really small meals a day! Get the best of both worlds! Not near to perfect but at least it's something. Though I do get really self conscious of my weight at times, I always remind myself that Marc will love me just the way I am. Size zero or not. Right Marc Marc?! So stay healthy girls! There's more to life than being super perfect & stick thin. Nobody is.

Pictures below were taken yesterday! And I trimmed my fringe to bangs yet again! How is it?

To be really honest la, I don't really like the way I look with bangs cause it never turns out the way I want it to be! Frustrating.


My boy with dreads! Looking good?




Till next time! xoxo

Le boyfriend.

Yep. This is one of my personal favorite shots of him! I know he likes taking photos of himself (talk about self obsession lol!) but since the minute I browsed through many of his pics, this caught my attention most!
Though he isn't the most perfect, most handsome, most understanding, most charming, most richest, most hunkiest guy in this planet, he tops the list for being the most lovable boyfriend I've ever had. Ya, ya, I know most of you will think that I'm saying all this for this brief moment when we're together. And with that, I'll prove you guys wrong.
We've been through a lot. We've seen a lot of each other - both the good & the bad. And to be honest, there were many ups and downs in this relationship itself. Talked about settling down without each other plenty of times but M will always have this reluctance in him towards letting me go, letting this relationship go. Maybe that's what inspired me to try work our problems out with him instead of throwing my bull temper at him. There's just something in him that keeps me coming back for more.
So if you happen to be reading this M, I guess it's alright for me to say that I kinda love you much much more? Promise me. No more "I love you more" fights. This post proves it all. Hugs.

Everything will be fine.

So I've been thinking things out a little too much these days and it's really starting to exhaust me.
What will I be 10 years from now? Who will stand by me? Will all my family members stay as healthy as they are now? What if I lose any one of them? And will Marcus still be the willing one who'll stick by me be it in good or bad times by then?
Maybe it's true when they say your mind is everything. What you think, you become.


So with each passing day, I always tell myself, everything will be fine.

Goodnight.

Nothing lasts.

Hola~ It's been so damn long since I last blogged so here's a quick post for you readers out there! So last weekends, I got to catch up with amicell and we also did a really quick shoot for her blogshop.

Gotta admit it's been ages since I last caught up with any of my girlfriends especially A! Feels kind of good to go out on girl dates like these though cause it's been so so so long since I actually went out or do anything big. So, my sincere apologies for the lack of update here!

Anyway, I'll think of something to vlog about next week or so? Leave your thoughts on what you want me to vlog about in my formspring if you do have something in mind alright?
So how is life for me now? Hmm.. Can I say it's not doing too good? Cause I feel like I need bigger goals in life. I want the good stuffs but am never ready to go through the bad and working hard for it. I need goals. I need motivation. I need resolutions.
Time & time again, I constantly remind myself that nobody will be there for me should I commit any grave mistake - something my mum emphasizes ALL THE TIME. Nobody should be helping me when I'm in the wrong, the same way I shouldn't be helpin anybody if they're in the wrong. There are plenty of things I should keep in mind. In life, I believe that hard work really pays off. If you want something bad enough, you've got to work hard for it. In love, I believe in having fairness in a relationship. There's just so much to learn. Really.
Here you girls go; the set of pictures taken from the shoot. Remember to visit COUTURELANEfor more details or if you wanna purchase any of these pretty apparels from them because most of the really pretty items are close to selling out! And do me a favor will you? Go to http://www.facebook.com/CoutureLane and like their page! Thanks a dozen! xoxo

Breaking walls.

Finally am back from what seemed like a very long hiatus! Initially planned to blog thru my iphone but it unfortunately died...tragically. And so, I found some time to use the com today so here I am trynna update this dying space. Nothing much, just a few pics of what I've been up to recently. Enjoyyyyy?







CNY w M.







And my very first vlog! Just a rough idea of how I normally do my makeup, nothing too edgy or interesting though. But but but I'm planning on a nail art tutorial or prolly a haul video next so formspring me if you guys have better ideas? xoxoxo