Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Just how many of you feel like you're only living to please others than living to please yourselves? Yes, I do feel that most of the times. Sad to say this but I'm sure I worry more bout what others thinks of me and what kind of an impression I'll leave more than they'll ever care.
Pardon my rants but I just had to. I need someone to talk to but it's hard to express. I need someone to understand but I'm too shy to ask. The irony... So anyway, here's a quick update with photos taken recently! Shall try to nap for awhile after I get this done. Have got work later on ): My life these days? Home>Work>Marc>Sleep. So bloody lifeless ya?
In the salon waiting for Marc Marc to get his hair done!
& bowling last weekend! Gosh I suck at bowling.
Omg his feets are HUGE right?! Mine looks so puny beside his...
Told ya I sucked at bowling!
Went to have waffles for supper before bowling! Not the best waffles I've ever had but still, anything sweet is always delish!
Fruity pebbles and m&m's for toppings! Both me and Marc's favourites.
And random photos from both our instagram!
Found this set of pictures below in Marc's phone! Adorable huh...fancy taking pictures of me while webcamming. Who ever does that nowadays? Hahahahaha.
I know I do mention a lot about Marcus in my blog but that's only because I know he loves reading it. Whenever he knows I'll be doing a post to update my blog, he'll be like "Is it gonna be about me??? Blog about me la I want to read. Please please please?" Hehehehe. So very Marcus Chan!!! Nevertheless, whether I blog about him or not, he still reads my blog every time I update. My very faithful reader. (:
Sunday, July 8, 2012
It's always more painful to hear upsetting words from people I love or those closer to me. It's always more saddening to not have that bunch of people to be happy for me regardless of whatever decisions I've made in life. "Be happy for me," I said. "Be happy for me like how I've been happy for you and all the decisions you made."
Friday, July 6, 2012
Good 12am everyone! How was your Friday night? Cause I've been wasting mine away with sleep. Yes, horrible and what a waste, I know. Anyway, just thought I'll get a post done since I've got nothing better to do. Just a few pictures taken this past few days. Most of which are already in instagram so for those who hasn't followed me yet, follow me here (I do update instagram more often than I do update my blog) -
(about 5 weeks ago)
(about 3 weeks ago)
And me now. Haha what a difference I must say! Still thinking if I should get back to dieting though... And you know what I hate most about people? First they tell me it'll be perfect if I could lose a couple of kilos and when I've actually lost that amount of weight, they'll tell me to gain that couple of kilos back and I'll be just perfect. Oh really?
#ootd shot taken after I was done with the interview. So glad I left my old job for this better paying job opportunity! Cant wait for work to start!!!
The boyfriend & I. Haha. Best camwhoring partner. Ever.
Fyi, the both of us has moles at this similar spot on our face. His, on the top left eye and mine on the right. I didn't used to have this mole on my eye though, started developing about few months after I got together with him. Hahaha that's just plain weird I know and it might have developed there due to not removing my eye make up properly. SO to anyone out there, if you do ever wanna get a mole or what they call a beauty mark (???) somewhere on your face, don't clean your face properly LOL. Just kidding la you'll only end up with more pimples so better clean your face properly esp when you have makeup on!
Coincidentally did the same pose as him hahaha or can I just say we have this really strong telepathy with each other?
Guess that's just about how long this post will be!
Oh! And I need a favor from you guys! I'll be really really thankful if you could help me a tiny bit by reporting this guy named CHOON BOON on facebook. I don't usually make a big fuss out of people who uses my pictures on fb or people who tries talking to me crudely (eg asking for sexual commitments in exchange for money etc) cause at most I'll just ignore them totally before having them reported. I'm sure many of you girls out there has experienced this kinda situation right? This fella here, has the cheek to continue harassing me even after I had him reported. This has been going on for about a month now. Ridiculous and bloody irritating. Seriously. He then went on to using my picture as his fb header. Didn't know bout it only after I received a text from my friend and since I had him reported, I wasn't able to see his profile.
Not only that. He had his friends to facebook inbox me and you know just how irritating it is to be receiving spammed messages which doesn't make any sense at all? Not only for my 1st account but for my 2nd account as well. Feel my frustration people! It really is very very very annoying.
And to think that he actually created a twitter account to harass me there as well.
Oh please, someone put a stop to this. I'm sure he's harassing many other girls out there as well . Just want this barbaric person to stop pestering me. It's been more than a month already. My goodness....
Monday, July 2, 2012
Ole Henriksen African red tea foaming cleanser.
Hope this post helped in a way or two for those who've asked and are in a search for a good cleanser or a serum. Good luck. X
Sunday, July 1, 2012
So about a month ago, both me & Marc decided to call it quits. I believe that didn't came as a big surprise to the both of us cause we've been there, done that so so many times. Till I thought, "You've had enough. Don't waste your life on a guy who's always asking you to leave. Its time to wake up." My very last memory of him wasn't a really fond one but I admit I was the one who really left. I left him hanging the way he left me hanging. And yes, there were the good times but when you find yourself crying and being so upset over the one who's supposed to bring you happiness instead, is really just wrong. So I decided to move on with life and start prioritizing.
I was doing really well forgetting him actually. Getting to know different kinds of people, everything. I straightened out my life a whole lot somehow. I started going home every single day after work and spent the right amount of time with the right people. My mind almost completely taken off everything that has to do with Marcus. I didn't cry or budge when I see him tweeting hurtful things or talking/getting to know other girls and many other ridiculous things which I choose not to mention here. But at the end of the day, deep down I know I still care.....those who knew me well enough knows.
Long story short, I went to pick my stuffs up from him few days ago and that was when we finally came to this conclusion - to work things out. Deep inside I was really really scared to give that one last chance cause I've given plenty and all I got in return was dissappointment. I was somehow reluctant to give up the life I've "prioritized" and it feels like all the walls I built round my heart came crashing down in vain just like that. But guess what? He really is a changed man. It was really shocking to see him trying and changing THIS much. He's been waking up really really early just to have breakfast with me before sending me off to work and makes it a habit to take me out to dinner after I end work. He lets me be the decisionmaker now and he'll cancel plans with his friends if he knows it's far too late to be out whenever I have work the day after. He lets me have so much sleep and advices me to spend more time with my family. There's just too many changes to list it all down here but I'm glad I gave him this chance. They say that people change with time but during this period apart, I just got to realize that sometimes, it's time that changes people.
Anyway, pictures below were taken bout a few days back.
Dinnner wtih Marc Marc. :D
And photos taken on webcam hehehe.